Experiences







"Kai's work is an extrodinary experience! I've participated in about 20 Shakti weekly group sessions conducted by Kai. First I must say that Kai is very dedicated to her daily spiritual practice and has a very powerful connection to spirit.
Kai's beautiful singing voice and mastery of the harmonium along with her husband's drumming talents and chanting by the group combine to create a divine setting for her work. Kai works directly on each participant, for me it was a little different each time. Speaking in various languages she is obviously directed by spirit to awaken and move the energy to where it is needed most. I apparently had a blockage at my third eye which required repeated work. Eventually I had a breakthrough and have since been more intuitive and aware of spirit. 
After each session I was in a "bliss state," which sometimes lasted for several days. The energy also radiates to others.  I found that people and animals sometimes reacted to the energy I radiated, my two cats wouldn't leave me alone after a session.
Kai's work is a true blessing."
--Larry Seaman, Williamsport, PA




 " i go where the blessings are. and the blessings come to where i am. they have been numerous.

it was her picture that drew me: her soft blond hair and no makeup skin. and her name (the name of the ocean, the name of someone whose eyes have the bright blue of my favorite place to swim on the planet). to imagine this woman could hold Kali energy in her body & wield blessings truly intrigued me. i felt an opportunity had arisen, that this night would hold for me a special gift.

a group of nearly 20 of us gathered. we sang a devotional song for a long while, several words sung repeatedly & increased tempo over time. i sung hard from my navel, from the pit where sound begins. i opened my throat and felt my voice bouncing off the walls, threading with the harmonium, the mridangam, clapping & the other voices of those sitting on the floor all around me. and when we finished singing, Kai Shanti was ready. she took off her orange shirt to reveal a red tee with a picture of Kali underneath. she picked up a hand held broom made of peacock feathers, began to chatter in rapid gibberish and yelping sounds like a giddy girl child.

the first person Kali went to was wafted with the feather cluster, striking their chest & back. there was a moaning, then, a slow crescendo of a scream! an ear piercing utterly incomprehensible octave. i sheepishly peeked to see the goings on, quickly closing my eyes again to focus on my inner state. when the release was complete, Ma Kali said: "Awww it's okay Ma, you're okay Ma, see? There you go, there you go" in that youthful pitch. i felt many of us pondered how our blessings would go, with such an unexpected start.

Ma Kali would randomly choose the next person. she would "hit" (as much as that word can describe being struck with soft stalks of feathers) her body & the body of the person she came to. the interactions with each were unique. either gurgling guttural retching, as if she was eating the darkness she coaxed from within the person she touched, throwing it back up. other times yelling, angry sounding. then soothing, laughing. or singing: "Go Home, Hari Om, Go Home, Hari Om - hee hee hee hee heeeeee!". one blessing involved jumping on someone's back & screaming with glee. and towards the end, a call for all of us to put our hands upon a woman to assist the healing, a great community leader who helps so many, our hands helped her as tears flowed down.

as soon as i felt the feathers whapping my chest the fear came. but she was very gentle. chanting "Allah Allah Allah Allah..." and her special message to me, said again & again: "You know this already Ma!" of course she knew to tell me this - because everyday i feel like i don't know, everyday i ask for clarity. i melted into her arms. total surrender. surrendered "i don't know". she only touched the right side of my body, only spoke in my right ear. she felt around the right side of my back and said "Oh! There it is!!! Let it go let it go let it go" as she buzzed in my ear "BZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ" sent shockwaves through my spine.

in the days following, as this new space within integrates & darkness clears, there is laughter leftover. i have been easily in ecstasy, rejoicing with little cause. the clouds have also come and the tears fall like rain, the pain short lived. expanding the sense of emptiness. breathing it. living it. cultivating fearlessness by facing each & every one of them i have. wrapping my arms around each fear until it melt. and each time this happens, i crack up!"
 - Heart Wisdom, Houston, TX



 "I also have been feeling 'an expanding sense of emptiness' since the Shaktipat. It is amazing to me how each person had the experience s/he needed. For me, I felt the 'shockwaves through my spine', but it was gentle - gently climbing up my spine from the base of my spine to my heart, where it got stuck, and had to work through a block there. I felt the rising channel of electric-power stop, as if the cobra snake of Kundalini had bumped it's head on a dense, dark cloud. Then, I felt a wave of sorrow well up inside my chest, and I let it go... the grief I held there in my heart. The sorrow for... I don't know what, and it's not important... the sorrow, the grief releasing, moving through my body, out through my voice in sobs and moans and out through my tears, shaking in my chest... and Ma Kali held me and said, 'It's okay Ma, it's okay.' And I leaned into Ma Kali's arms and she wrapped them around me and held me close and tight. I let myself be comforted by the Divine Mother, letting go... and I felt so safe and loved in Her arms. Then the Love I felt from Her made me so happy! And the tears turned into laughter and giggles erupted from my lips, my throat. And I was so grateful to be Loved by Kali Ma, the Great Mother. And I felt the dark cloud lift away from my heart. And Kali touched my chest again, saying, 'okay, okay' and she guided the gentle electric shock up to the back of my head, and then to the crown... and I could sense the cobra's head expanding, Kundalini had risen in me and I was full of Love!"
-Emery Lauten Meadows, Houston, TX 

1 comment:

  1. I have attended Shaktipat with Kai for most Saturdays over the past year. In the very least you come away feeling Ma's love, which can linger for days. Sometimes I would only sense Ma's love but I knew something was being worked on. Other times I would have an emotional or physical release with a sense of what it was that was being released. I always felt loved and grateful for the experience. I feel attending Shaktipat accellerated my spiritual growth and I am grateful to Kai, Ma and my Divine Soul, Namaste.

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